Continue to Pray

Okay day 1 of realizing that life is just not the life I thought it would be. I'm blessed to be a daughter, a sister, a friend, a wife, and a mother. I feel wonderful about what I am in life. I feel like this is exactly what God wanted me to do in life. Oh and I'm a teacher. Teaching as the calling I got in 1st grade and I have been teaching for 11 years now. Recently I have thought about getting out of teaching but I just find the strength and another job that I can do. I have been struggling financially trying to make sure I supply my family with our needs. Lately I thought maybe I'm being punished by God because it just seemed that we were going down hill fast. I was taking out loans here and there to try to pay bills and catch up and then it started to get so bad with the rental people that they gave us eviction papers. I'm not proud of that. I'm more upset with me because I had told myself when we got our taxes back that some of that was for us moving. Now we are behind and trying our hardest to get the money to the people so that chapter of our lives can be clear. I worried that we were going to be homeless. How can I take of my family? If I don't have any money to pay bills so that we can have a place to stay. I prayed and asked others to pray for my family. I  don't think we are bad people but how can I pay bills if the money isn't in the bank. How can I put food on the table if there is no money in the bank? I just want to be able to catch up and pay all my bills with money still left over for food and gas. I'm praying to God right now that he will provide me and my family with what we need to be okay. I'm praying that God is able to find it in his heart to help us with the money problems we are having right now. I just need the funds to make sure that the bills are paid for and that we have food to eat and gas to put in the cars to get to work. I know my husband and I work so much and so many times we do things that aren't required of us but yet we do it without pay. I know God doesn't want people to worship money, but at the same time how can not think and worry about money when that is what we need to survive in this world. I know I don't need new this and that. Right now I just need a miracle but maybe not even a miracle, but God to provide us with the funds to get out of this hole we are in. I thank God in advance for all that he provides for my family.